So I shall make sure I remember these holidays forever. They have been one big glorious mass of listening to the Beatles very loudly on repeat, playing chess in the park, eating Asian dumplings, having picnics in the middle of road islands, growing vegetables, drawing, working at the local chocolate shop, going to the gym, hanging out with any number of fantastic people, attending music/art/theatre festivals and reading my way through the literary classics and the obscure. And despite the weather being a bit of an...ass I couldn't be happier! I am off to my grandparents soon, probably my favorite place of this very earth with a very good friend of mine. So I can look forward to a full week of wandering deserted paths amongst the paddocks, swimming in rivers fishing for eels at midnight and making dresses with my grandmother. If only existence was to do just this.
Alas, it is not and the rather foreboding prospect of college is apon me. "They'll be the best two years of your life! you won't want to leave!" great, I get that, I have been living for these years since I was five minutes into high school. But then I get a sick turning feeling in my stomach every time I think of entering those gates on the first day. I will know hardly anyone and I dread the thought of spending my first lunch time alone...childish? most probably. But it does terrify me.
And so this is why I shall remember this summer. This summer of security before entering the totally naked and unknown.